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The name is ERNZZZ. Just turned legal 18! Currently studying in Melbourne. Young future Architect! God, I love.

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Praise in the morning, Praise in the evening
Praise when im laughing, Praise when im grieving
There will be dancing, There will be singing
Upon injustice we will tell of our God
In the darkness, in trial
My soul shall sing
Of His mercy, and kindness
Our offering of praise
Our God never fails
Our God never fails."

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Friday, February 11, 2011

I leave tonight. I can definitely say that I'm leaving with a heavy heart. Thinking about it, the previous times I've left, I don't think that I was this heavy hearted. I remember, the first time I left for Melb, sure I was sad that I was leaving home, but I also remember being so sick of what was going on in my life at that time that I couldn't wait to leave and start over, a fresh start. And last year was great. 2010 was definitely the year of growth, experience and change. Now heading back in 2011, I wonder how this year would turn out. But we will never really know, will we?

Being back home for the summer this time, it has been really good, to my surprise. But of course something was definitely the reason to it being good. January, the month where I was constantly truly genuinely happy, something I haven't felt in awhile. What sucks is that it has to end. Life moves on you know, it won't stop for me or anyone else. This coming year I will be expecting, a tough course, business, sleepless nights, coffee etc. I pray that I will be able to make it through everything that gets thrown towards me this year.

Tonight, 2 people have told me the almost exact same thing. One after the other. Both of them told me that I was a strong person and they know that I don't see myself as it sometimes, but they reassured me I was. Maybe it was a reminder, you know. Maybe God wanted to keep me reminded. Because I know how vulnerable I can be. I feel too much. I think too much. I feel hurt often. And sometimes I wonder where do all these emotions come from. Probably from the past. Things I went through. But also, those were the things that made me who I am today. Maybe those were the things that made me strong. I may not see myself as a strong person. But I am glad that I portray myself as such. At least people see that in me. They see something I don't, and sometimes that amazes me. I do doubt myself, many many times. I put myself down. But somehow I manage to pull through every time. It isn't easy, but I manage to. Sometimes I ask myself where my self-confidence is. But every time I ask myself that, I'm always reminded that I need to be confident because there is no point in looking down on myself.

You told me the things about me that you like. Honestly, it surprised me. Because those things you mentioned, I never knew I had it in me. I'm glad that you've seen that part of me, that part that I myself do not see. And I'm happy that I am who you describe me to be. I never knew I was that kind of person. So, thank you for bringing out the best in me.

♥our lips must always be sealed

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